tired

oh man

i dont know why i am like that. been quite a chore even walking. my legs hurt due to a long walk. walked home from eunos after bible study... well now im even too tired to incluce details.

and today. brown formal shoes. i'll die one day my foot will break. the shoes show that my toes will all cramp at the top. man.

die lah. why like that. holy communion... pastor sharing.. i dozed off.. and when i woke up pastor was already preaching... thats a long time... pretended i was praying in tongues to prevent embarassment... sigh.

and i got suanned by pastor prince in front of the entire 4th service. long story. ended up in me having to put the pastor's handheld mic back at the rostrum. i didnt look up. i was scared u see. just kept praying and telling myself, "Rostrum. Mic. Put down, walk back."

i repeated that a billion times, and muttered prayers in tongues like every 2 seconds. pastor prince was sharing about adeline and her being married when i came out. i didnt hear a thing. i only heard that he said someone was too slow. and the audience laughed.

jia hwa told me that he was talking abt me... walking too slow? or too slow for addy. maybe pastor meant that i was walking too slowly, but at the same time i came out immediately pastor said that addy was taken... so maybe people took it wrongly yah.

ahhhhh tired. and i dunno why.. i need to sleep early lah... sian.

yes i know tmr is first guitar lesson.. start of the day i was sooo excited... but why now i so sian everything also die die die one. hai.

oh and im hungry. how? look for leftover food... sigh.

my mum made me do an accounts book. every single cent i had to write down how i spend. and now i realise how fast money can be spent. and... sigh to save money i didnt buy my own dinner. till now havent eat. how.

fatigue overdose? jia hwa said i looked very sad and depressed.. then mj said i looked as if my mind wasnt with me.... man whats wrong. chronic fatigue syndrome? nah i dont believe that. jesus healed me. amen.

i think i might want to eat now.