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here we go again

i dun understand. vanessa what nonsense are u spouting? ur telling e entire of dhs abt how we broke up and stuff. i dun get it. u told me to be quiet abt it not to tell anyone, and i abided by ur statement. i kept my mouth shut. whats up with ur end of the deal?

have u not any sense at all? im HAPPY. JOYOUS and EXTREMELY contented with yixiu and i dont want to leave her. will u stop trying to break the both of us up?

i mean if u want me to bring everything up again, i would. but i dont really like to rake up the past. lets say that u refuse to let go, and thus need someone to blame. u look for yi xiu, who will remain as my girlfriend for a LONG TIME. and u blame her for taking me away? my heart is not for people to snatch here and there. i MOVE. im not taken.

i'll let u in on smt ok. i bet u never loved me as much as yi xiu did. which girl. in the entire whole wide world. would be able to accept me. accept me for all my deeds. my past deeds. which girl would take ME, a guy who has committed so many things in the past.. me who has been labelled: flirt. all over. and actually accept me for who i am? u know how LOVED i felt. u know how ACCEPTED and HAPPY i felt. that someone could lay behind my iniquities and actually LOVE me despite all that.

the power of this LOVE. makes people change. u think by scolding me u can change me? to stop being a flirt. to stop doing all the bad things i've done. discipline can change this? love can. and love is powerful. to flirt. to lust. to keep on chasing after girls. that isnt love. that is not love at all. love is when ur able to put down all the person's faults. to look past the bad things. to overlook all the barriers. and see the light at the end.


have u forgotten all this dear? yixiu..

Acceptance means that you
Can find serenity within
To let go of the past
With its mistakes and regrets,
Move into the future
With a new perspective,
And appreciate the opportunity
To take a second chance.

my second chance. one i will never waste. i want to be given one second chance dear. please. accept me.

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Acceptance does not mean
That you will always be perfect,
It simply means that
You'll always overcome imperfection.

vanessa, face it. u've lost. lost me. lost ur chance. do u rmb our arguements? i refused to give in at nights. and in e morning when i wake up. i'll always say sorry. but no u wld NEVER accept a sorry from me. and u know, i dont really know why ur going to rake everythin up again and make yixiu all sad and angry and all. but hey. if ur gonna do that ur gonna spoil our r/l.

i dont see ur pt in doing this. really. u love me? are u sure? vanessa phang. and if u do, why are u doing this? u know u'll only make me more irritated by the minute? and face it u lost me! it only makes sense. when a girl loves a guy and another girl comes by and tries to snatch the guy. u fight for the guy. where was the fight? dont break me and yi xiu up. please? we're very very VERY happy together.

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Acceptance is the road to peace ~
Letting go of the worst,
Holding on to the best,
And finding the hope inside
That continues throughout life.

vanessa. accept. accept the fact. you've lost. dont think about anything else. just meditate on this statement. lose. u've lost. ur chance has come and gone. ive come and gone.

if it takes my whole life
i wont break
i wont bend
it will all be worth it.
worth it in the end.
cause i can only tell u what i know
that i need u in my life
and when the stars have all gone out
u'll still be burning so bright

van. if u say u love me. it'd be a lie. love is when u want the latter to be happy. i'd give anything to make yixiu happy. and van. if u love me. u'd want me to be happy. and being happy means leaving me and yixiu alone. seeing me happy means leaving me and yixiu alone. im happy. REALLY happy with yixiu. i love her. Love. is a strong word. i learnt. i have learnt. the meaning. the TRUE MEANING of love.

i love euu yixiu.
`eugenelim.