Family Politics.

oh great. i've sure heard of cca politics. class politics. foreign politics. but come ON family politics? these guys are taking it way too far.

mom? jesus u know how cranky i get when someone wakes me up for no stupid reason at all in the mornings. and ooh u HAD to scold me. ahhhh *hatred boils up*.

ok here's how it went. i only remember my sis coming into my room to ask for the house phone. i was chatting with vanessa in the middle of the night last night.. and yeaa. i was afraid to put the phone back downstairs can? last night got someone scream k. den i had this mental image of a decaying baby hanging upside down in my room. that explains why i was so frightened. so yeah..

my sis took the phone and i went back to zz. zz it was, till my mom came into my room. she screamed at me. she talked about bringing the house phone into the room. how this SMALL matter can become a BIG matter. she said anything that I did wrong, becomes HER fault in my grandparents' eyes. christ. she talked about the TIDINESS of my room. crap u know how i HATE my room to be tidy. i totally DETEST ok? im sorry for being unappreciative and all that shit, but omg? i NEVER did like anyone touching my stuff can? lets say i comment that ur drawer is messy, mom let me tidy it for u. u wouldnt know how i tidy it right? "tidying" becomes "more messy". and u wonder how i work in such an environment? gee thats just me. personal study and work preferance. im so sorry but i cant comply with ur request to tidy my room. maybe i will. put my cds back into their cases, but im not going to touch anything else.

grandparents: maybe u will read this, maybe u wont. i doubt grandma will, but if grandpa tries, he has full access to this blog. why do u guys always blame everything on mommy? EVERYTHING is mum's fault. do u know how horrible it is? i mean, i get that feeling too. event i/c right? sound screws up and the entire hall is looking at ME. im not the one doing sound, but come on give me a break. they think its all av's fault. teamwork guys. but in this case, my grandparents SO know that its MY fault, why go to my MUM? she's already so stressed as it is. please give her a break and go to dad or smt. or rather, come straight to US can? sure i'll probably explain why i did all this, why my room is so messy and all that crap. but eh. its for u guys to understand can? jesus.

im sorry for blogging nonsense, but these are my feelings. my feelings are nonsense. mm. no one cares anyway. not anymore.