woots. crazy AGAIN.

arrrghs.. this is horrendous! its torturing me!

alright guys. yeah this is another one of those " GUITAR POSTS " where i go entirely crazy about the fact that i saw another magnificent guitar. haha. some things about today first before i plunge into the guitars.

ok ok. this morning i woke up.. well. i looked at the weiwei. its that thingie i bought. haha. fat, chubby, cute lala.. so i was like.. hugging it the entire night.. so fun fun! its like.. so soft and cuddly.. den i shower blablabla.. my laptop still on, so i jus checked out blogs for a while. haha. den went out as usual.. ok.

haha. i asked changsong to come dwn to accompany me to class. cos carry that giant plastic bag damn big lehx. so got changsong and weichoy come down la. haha. cut long story short we go up to class.

wah fuck. nvm i dun wan to continue abt my day liaos. impt events : i passed the present to germaine aft sch. i was hoping she'd take it and then.. like. take out and hughug. nw.. sian. nvm. i tell u wht happened aft sku so taht can make sense.

aft sch went to katong with weichoy, joshua, waikhang, changsong. we went to melissa's mom there to go eat. waited like fking long. nvm that one nt impt. wht happened ws that shaan came along, den i tutor.. happened that cells nt my best subject, but i tried. ok so explained. i even gave hwk. so so nth else liaos.

den.. aft that we all went to roxy. josh and weichoy went to zion. me and cs, wk. guitarist ma. go to the guitar shop there. soso. checked the shit out. it was bloody nice. built in amp in the fucking elec bass. the elec guit also gt built in amp one. but the bass with b/i amp is 2251. too ex for words. dam nnw i gt no mood to talk abt guitars. it was just damn nice. the amp was 10 watts but 60 bucks. got amp gd enuff liao la. den e gutiar that i wanted was 200 plus. good wad.. ok ok.. sian.. but.. parents. barrier.. fk la.

ok ok forgot. chinese test.. i slept during compre. do finish den slp again.. slpslpslp. i sleepy pig. stupid me. i hate myself. i cant eve concentrate on a simple paper. what have i become. a monster? pig? worse i guess. i'm just self centred old me. me and me and more me. yeah thats me. i shall revert to techno for solace. rock just brings out the emotional me. wait. techno too. nvm. i'll just play some guitar.

ok why the sudden mood swing? i was chatting with wk while bloggin on this. and u can see where my mood changed? where i said wah fuck. i mean. sian la.. feel like giving up. dn think i'll be any competition anyway. that "sum1 frm tms" was right anyway. weipo.. kim.. all those who gave me their advice and stuff. they were right. even josh was right. i shldnt have invested in the present. i miss it. i miss hugging it. wk said.. smt about.. she doesnt wanna talk to me? oh well.. thats ok. she didnt touch my present? i have nothigt o say at tht point of time. what? can at least appreciate what i did? u know who's money i used to buy that? well. its ok. i just used my guitar fund. the amnt of money i saved up to buy my Berkly Electric. nt sure of model. but. if i cld save half my mom wld pay for the other. she said that. then? nw dad dun allow. i dn think my mom will pay for the other half also. i gave up. i tried persuading my father. didnt work. so? the money. i planned to ake use of it to pay for guitar lessons if i ever took up any. today at the place. it was 70 bucks for a group of 3. jus nice. me, cs and wk. 70 bucks. at the most sacrifice a bit frm my monthly allowance. pay la. dn? now wad. nw. i used the cash for a soft toy. mm. my amp still in sch. gotta get frm firdaus. i better get off mtv. the guitars are driving me to the edge.

wk dno how to say, but he concluded : she doesnt want to talk to me. when i asked if she liked the present? wk said that germ nv touched it. that she kept talking abt kimberly hugging it and running around the sch.my guitar funnd.. and the thing was 24.90. some of u think that 24.90 is peas. good for u la. rich shit. contribute to my fund in that case la. wk then talked abt... this yr being my last yr. in tms. i din wanna be reminded, but since he touched on it. i jus continued the topic. he said i was going to jc nxt yr. in jc.. go jio the cchs girls. chung cheng high main is also in the thru train..

im questioning anyone out there. any idea why she doesnt wanna talk to me? or even.. acknowledge my present? nv even touch it? is that exaggerated? wk said that she doesnt realli like me. she told him alot of who she likes.. most sec 1.. 2E? and all e others.. NT? NA? nvm.. im just complaining to the blog here. poor blog. i faced disappointments today. a whole series of them. chi test im a useless fuck. i cant stay awake for peas.. and syakirah asked ms lim if the thru-trainers get graduation night. ms lim said we were transferring sch. not graduating. but.. its one level higher isnt it? graduation? why dont we get grad night! and there isnt a farewell party? cant there be something for us to remember? something nice? instead of. im leaving tms. im leaving tms. im leaving tms. cant we have some nice memories? sian. and then my mom put me down o that guitar crap. kept asking me to go to international plaza. "learn the basics first then go further into." ok ok here's the deal. electric and classical are both diff things. both have diff techniques. playing? carrying? the plucking/strumming also diff tech. no purpose going for classical when i cant apply many of the moves to elec. cos the moves ae made for a classical guit. so? "still u shld learn the basics/ then proceed to advanced." there's basic electric guit u know? "eugene. ur foundation gotta be strong. then easy to go up." who said there'd be no strong foundation with an electric. damn. i din say that last one. but. crap. its.. well. just disappointing. now this germaine thing. well. my fault? dont know.

i've got this comment thing working. and i shld be god damn happy that i changed my blog skin. its real nice and all. accompanied by the song. its nice. nice and nice. but the mood tonight spoiled everything. damn. waht lse is there to say. im going to play guitar. and break my 0.9mm pick. the one i've been eating. im going to break smt tonight. be it a string. my pick. the guitar. my heart? i dont know. i jus hope someone fully understands that. life's jus nt straight for me. im "happy" in sch.. i act. itsjust not me. im not me when my friends are around. im not me. am i? i dont know. im confused.