red. i see red. its over.

Ok. rule. my posts are going to be in red until i stop being depressed and all.

sry for the monotonous colour. but its somehow an indicator of some sort. well. u guys get what i mean, thats what's most important.. its been a day. what a day it has been.

mm.. joon tat been talking to me since.. arnd 10 pm. i shall talk a lil about that later.

wells. morning.. sun rose early today. =).. haha. at 6.45 i thought i was frigging late. anyway, went off to sku and all that boring crap. i SWEAR i heard germaine scream and her friends all trying to pull her to the wall or smt when i walked up the flight of stairs. i din see nutting. jus heard. was it tru?

haha. ok. den first 2 periods. maths. anw, congrats to dianzhuang! how u get 48/50 de. lols. igot 41 and josh! im so proud of u! 44? =). great job man! haha. poor thing weichoy got 43. lols. HEY! damn that means i din nid to pay for today's mac! arrrrrgh. dumb me. lol.s.

err. ok. den pe. wah. the sun was buring down mercilessly on us. it was killing me. im sure my other classmates felt the same too. arrgh. hothot. haha. den recess.. well nth much. den.. chinese. well. whats there to say? =). a lil boring.. but chinese will be chinese. nxt. geog? ouchies. dn talk abt it. eng. compre e entire time. funfun. no teaching, no boring, cool.

aft sch. went to mac. to study. weichoy said germaine maybe coming. i dno la. lols. when i see her like that. she purposely dowan to talk to me one rite. look also nv look. -_".. wells. anw eat lor. eat liao do hwk. do liao study la. lols. and i have 2 primary 5 standard questions which are frigging had. nid to re-arrange e circles and cut and paste in order to find the area. sianss. anw, here goes..

weichoy suggest i give up. joshua? suggested i give up too? was it? anw, wk suggested that a long tym ago. mj says she's nt the type for me? weipo was telling me that she's evil and nt for me. i bet germaine loves all these ppl for giving me a bad impression of her. hey! i dont get it. whats so bad abt me? am i really that horrible? eew. i hate to think that i've changed so much that no one likes me as a friend anymore. have i been getting on any of ur nerves? cos if i am, i really wanna know. so that i can change for the better yar. anws, i waiting for germaine's reply. wait for like damn long la. i bet she din like me as a friend in the first place. o.O. thinks. maybe not. well i dont really kno. comments anyone?

ok ok here it comes. anw, jt was telling me. he's basically having family financial problems. quite serious k? before i go on, i'd like all of u to treat him indifferently. meaning that we dun seperate him out in a crowd, we dun treat him like a VIP and all. jux like the normal person we usually treat him like. overall. when we see how other's problems can make us feel extremely fortunate. he's probably fortunate that he's not dead. and now.. i see the light. i see why i am fortunate. im no where near that stage. no medical problems. jt actually needs to go for a hospital checkup on low-blood pressure? but he refuses. saving money i guess. and. well. sometimes i look back at what i've been doing. and i find myself Stupid. overall: he's going thru a hard time. sure he is. but dont treat him all different and important all of a sudden. his family maybe going bankrupt, but we shall always have him as a great friend and leader. jt, i'll be behind u wherever ur stand is. im sorry i have to leave nxt yr, but i'd be here aft sch. if possible, that is. and btw, my hse is open if u nid any sort of help. if u decide to help ur parents lessen load, u can come to bunk for temp. kies? =)

sometimes in life. people like me really need to be reminded. YOUR SO FORTUNATE. although people like me think that, "this is miserable shit." we all nid to kno that this isnt the end. the end is when ur in ur coffin and ppl are crying over you. thats the end. we're fortunate not to be in that state. so people who need encouragement, can always come to this post and read. rmb: all of us have problems. joon tat's not special or anything. people who are happy doesnt mean that they are trouble-free. it just means that they can tuck away their problems and ignore the war thats going on in their head. that they are contented with the fortunes they have, be it consciously, or sub-consciously. The best motivation is to have NO motivation. so that it will never flicker, it will never die away. still, dont treat joon tat differently. i request. he requests. we're all human. only human.

anw, jus to say smt, if germaine ever reads this blog, please tell me e ans lehh! for all u kpos out there. NO its not THAT question. ok ok . well somehow related. soso. i believe germaine knows the question. nid a repetition? sms me k? i look back at the chat logs. and i feel sad. why cant we talk as normally as last time? i just miss those times that we could talk about normal things. crap around. i regret not talking to u so much last time. i was shy i guess. and attached. now.. its too late is it? well. i hope for a reply. even if it hurts, just a reply.