it all dawns on me

it now all dawns; how important i place you in my life..

a prediciament, giant and huge one. to choose between helping my sis "bootlick" her way into temasek sec, and help a brother in need,

or to go out with someone special to me.

Temasek Secondary School 25th Anniversary Dinner. The biggest event of 2005, and also the most important. Guests of Honour coming from the MOE, other schools. Close relatives of TMS, previous principals, teachers and students alike coming to celebrate this school's existence.

And also a chance for me to get "warmed up" with the new principal before going to talk to her about my sister's entry into Temasek Sec. The new principal doesn't know me yet, but the old one will. And the new principal is who my family is going to talk to, if we ever decide to talk to the new principal about my sister's entry to TMS...

But oh well, I decided to be selfish and go out.. Leaving mj in the lurch. I feel guilty. And my sis. I feel even more remourseful. The guilt's going to eat me up..

I hope I can live with the load.