Dreams

The past few days, i've been walking around in a daze. been wondering. hey. whats up with me man. i cant keep my eyes open without blinking so much. yawns come as frequently as once in ten seconds. time just flies past; and i tried my best. i couldnt do anything about it.

despite my early hours, i really could not find a solution for my lethargicness. if there is such a word. this is.. hard to comprehend. i dont know how to phrase this. im just. super super tired. every single day. i feel my muscles giving way and bending when i try to exercise them. my body doesnt listen anymore. i've been trying to get some sleep. but when i wake up its the same thing..

a few days ago i wondered. does it have to do with my sleeping position? so i changed my sleeping style. where my legs used to be, now rests my head. but no. it was the same. this morning, a new thought came to my mind.

what are dreams?
- i've heard research saying that when u dream, or have bad dreams(nightmares) your mind doesnt rest, it keeps on working. ur body may be at rest, but ur mind is equally lethargic.

now i know why.

the past few nights i've been having dreams. weird ones, funny ones, scary ones. just that i didnt wish to tell anyone in fear that they'd call me stupid; dumb to dream about such things. what could i do? i dont know how to control my dreaming..

there was a dream where i was walking in the park. started off pretty nice. i dun remember what the details were, but i rmb the feeling- pretty nice. then the sky turns black and everything seems to be melting around me. i look at you. and you turn into something incorrigible. then u attempt to kill me. i couldnt remember who i was walking with in the park. but logic tells me there's only one person i would walk with in a park.

then just last night i had this dream. i spiked my hair ever so nicely. so patiently. but no it wouldnt stand properly.. so i just did my fringe and went out. was picked up in a BEETLE and there were these two guys in suits with tails, with their tophats and bowties. yeah like in the 17th century englishmen. canes and all.

then we exited the car. the journey seemed no time at all. we were the centre of attraction. everyone was cheering and clapping. my two counterparts were waving, so i decided to wave too. i was warmly welcome. i remember the feeling so well.

then disaster struck. i remember hearing a bang, and i turned to see one less friend. someone took my hand and blindly i followed the person, wanting to evade whatever sniper there was. everyone was screaming. chaos. when i followed the person to the alley. i thought it would be my saviour. i saw her. yes her. strangely enough, she pushed me against the wall. i can remember her saying something. but i didnt comprehend that part. it was like a silent movie. and then she appeared angry. and even angrier. and then i woke up.


what exactly are dreams? some people say they are an alternate reality. this means? this means that in another universe, there is another me. and in another universe, there is another me. and when i dream, i am taken to the other universe and see thru the eyes of my counterpart. some people say i actually take control of his life. some people say that this dream thing. this thing where i go into another person's life. this occurs only when the person is about to die. that explains why we wake up when "i" fall off the cliff. or "i" get shot. or "i" get eaten by the dog.

i think that. dreams are.. bad enough.. why did reality have to reflect this? its unfair..

the reason why i didnt tell u, yi xiu, is because i didnt want u to worry. i wanted to show u that. hey, dreams are fine. relax. bad dreams then bad dreams la. go to sleep. sure got good dreams sometime one.

but now i just wanna proclaim what i've been dreaming about..

im just wondering. could our both dreams have coincided? where we were running from the bad guys. that dream. the shuttle run one. maybe u were playing shuttle run before i arrived in my car? and then havoc struck? i dont know..

in any case. i've been having weird, bad dreams. im letting all of u ponder- what exactly are dreams.

goodbye people.
im going to make my ic today. dunno how i should do my hair!! i tried to call u. but u didnt pick up. im at a loss.