things happen

things happen, they do

catch me as i fall, dont push me over;
if i pull u down with my fall, dont push me further down, the both of us will only go lower.

pull me up, i'll respond with an encouraging pull too.

it takes two, to keep this going.. please dont piss anyone off. including me. when i get pissed its not a good sight.. u know i dont like that sarcastic tone.. very much dun like it. im sorry.

i really am.
i am sorry.

` ever had those times when u felt as if u didnt know a thing?

it was as if i was asked to sit for an 'A' Level paper now. NOW. at sec 3. unprepared. i dont know a thing. i feel as if i'm being left out on this world's secrets.

i've been thinking.
what if ALL OF YOU. EVERYONE. EVERY SINGLE PERSON IN THIS WORLD. was just a toy? what if. what if. what if all the people on earth were androids, sent by higher beings to serve in my life.

what if all of u arent human, and were told to answer me that u were human
what if i was the only human on earth. what if human, is not human. what if we were taught that we are humans, but actually some sort of android to ANOTHER person. this is one question that will remain in my mind FOREVER.

is everything around me just an illusion? is there a more powerful and more significant alternate reality? what if earth was just a feeding ground for aliens?

when will my time come? why is air so light? why is 1+1=2? can i change the basics of math so that 1+1=3 and then create my entire set of rules for mathematics? why is the sky blue, why is the ocean so deep, why am i so small in this world, why do i have to have hair, why does technology seem so far away, why do we all wonder?

have u ever thought of all the questions that u could think of?

im thinking of all of them

im wondring

a lot of things, just wondering

and i realise how stupid i am.
im kept from so many so many so many things. so many things this world has, that i dont know. isnt that stupid?

eugene