thoughts

thoughts flooding your mind.
excruciating.
the feeling of being so useless
dead tired.
sick and tired of this all.
sick and tired of whats to come.
what has already past.
so many mistakes,
must i make more?

whats wrong with us children in the present?
is it the massive stress load?
haven't you read any papers recently?
15 year olds are going down with mental disease.
a.k.a going crazy.
is this true? is it a tool to scare parents?
is it a tool to scare children?
whats the government trying to do?
make machines?

`get a life.



alright enough of trying to be poetic. i was thinking abt loads of things.. hee. and i realised that.. what mj said was, to an extent, true.. he told me. erm. what? he said that having too many things on isnt so good for me afterall..

what happened was that last night clement asked me whether i wanted to do a wedding today. do sound for e wedding. since it was a new experience i said. well ok. and then he asked yan fen to msg me e details.

my phone msg was full. clogged up so i din realise that yanfen msg me le.then when i deleted msges aft service did i realise that its at 11am tmr.

sia la 11am. cannot leh. tuition at 12. i need to be at tuition. priority goes to studies.

how? msg clement tell him i cant make it..

at first i thought that the wedding's setup would have been done earlier. like 9 or 10. then maybe i have more time to rush down to katong frm mandarin hotel. but no..it was at 11.. anyway that wasnt the point, mj said. mj said that having too many things on in one day? not good for u. u know u have tuition already, when clement ask u if u can make it for the wedding, reject him.. tell him u have something on..

maybe this is my weak point. will i crumble under all this? will u be there when i crumble? to see me crumble? to sit on me and make me crumble even more? or will u be with me holding me up.. hugs i love my dear =) cos i knw what she'll do when i crumble..

anw yeah. mj was saying that.. and i took it into consideration. back in tms. haha. the good old days of running around. everyone knows u. the teachers come to u if they need anything. the hall is ur home. first home in fact. and the equipment is ur wife. love ur equipment, treasure ur home.. man i miss tms. the days have past..

time to live in the future now. damn i see no future here.. honestly i think that i'll be dead by year 4. i think all of us will be fried. stressed to the point that we dont want to come to school anymore. i wanna ask all those at NJ how's life now.. shit man...

anyway, i have tuition on later. i'll just go and wake up now, shower and all. chat with u guys later.

ps: its 3 more days dear =) 1003. iLu..