to run or not to run..

okayy.. tmr's TASC exco elections..

im in the TASC. did i publicise that here? haha how many people got shocked u tell me?

i dunno. dunno why i am such an incompetent civics rep.. cant get things done.. maybe i take the job too lightly?

sighs.. is this the impression thats gonna live on and on and on?

i was super touched by mr oh when he said that he didnt have anyone to take over president and VP in PSL.. he admitted that president wouldve been me and VP syakirah. but sadly IP takes the best and only the best.. and u cant deny that. we all have our plus points.. there must be a reason why im here.. look at my results. u think im here because im smart? thats wrong.. what else? PDP? oh becos i was so perfect in AV isit? that i even considered a future career in the AV line? sound engineer? becos i was serious abt it? was that why they picked me for this dreaded IP?

who knows? my character? enthusiastic? leadership qualities. everyone says i have them. naturally i dont agree! i dont see any capabilities in me.. sighs but its like. comments frm teachers are positive abt it..

jus yesterday at lunch, mr bala signalled to me and asked asked me to go over. he asked me how was the camp.. and asked me if i was planning to run for any exco position in the tasc.. and i said i was considering presidency.. and he was like " oh really? really.. i see.. okay then i need to talk to u. can u meet me in my room later? lets say. 2.30? " and i agreed, and at 2.30 i was at his room..

*note: i have shortened e convo.. so i may be replying "HERE" in like 2 sentences, when in actual fact i replied LOTS of shit.

"so. how was the camp?" mr bala first asked as i was taking my seat.
"well it served its purpose.. and i liked it alot.. haha.." i replied spontaneously.
and we chatted for a short while.. and then came the topic.
"so eugene. running for presidency eh?"
"well. yeah.."
"okay.. there have been positive comments about u frm the teachers.. feedback shows that ur in favour.. and we think u should go for it =)"

anyway, aft that i went off with marcus to tell the guys at the canteen the good news..

and mrs lim was sitting with yixiu and the rest. i saw vishi who was in the middle of the canteen.. and i decided to tell him first.. so i told him, who was talkin to sarah.. and they were surprised. sarah was having negative thoughts i guess.. she said " how can u run the SC when u cant even control the class?"

oh well. i talked abit more. and when i was walking back to the table with my ice cream that i bought, mrs lim got up. she walked past me and said " go for it. eugene go for IT! "

and wow. mrs lim is supporting me.. but.. im very afraid it'll cause controversy.. eg: sarah and wendy.. would i be able to prove myself to them one day? sighs..

if i run.. what will happen? will people's tongues start wagging behind my back? will they give me all their support? or put up fake smiles? i know the TASC is full of ppl with leadership.. maybe becos we are leaders.. and thus we cancel each other out.. if u get what i mean..

when all of us have leadership qualities. the only people who stand out are those with
-extremely good leadership qualities
-extremely favoured
-extremely popular
-extremely able to take control of situations.

etc etc.. and maybe none of us have such qualities? i may be wrong. prove me wrong ok?

so.. whats my decision? im running. running to serve the school. serious. haha. if i said i will run, i will run. not for the post. but becos i love doing things like this. =)

peace out..

`dear. takkaire of that cute leggie of urs.. hugsssss u fell asleep while msging u piggie. =) i love u anyway.. huggss.. sleep tight! mwaacks.