sighs. have no mood to sleep. keep on thinking abt my dad whenever i try to go.
its been a long day.. morning go church. had to wait for mum today. so den arnd 10.30 + reach. luckily valen help to book seats. so sit in main auditorium.. dens.. e guest speaker was cool i guess.. so yeah. aft that went over to music clef. our friend, ck, was telling us abt that graduation concert thing that was going to go on.. so he said if we cld practice or maybe take up lessons, we cld go in. we being randford, marshall and me la. haha. the guy made a funny comment. he said i more suited for bass? eeks. bass boring! lol. but nice la. either one also can lor, for me. but i prefer to lead. thats it. =).
anw, mom came over. played a few songs to her la. denden. CK told her abt e concert thing, den told her that we have potential de. =). veri interested also. i think she din buy the story la. anw, my father.. he didnt agree and will never agree. thats him i guess. forever disagreeing. sighs.
ok took cab home. den fool arnd with marshall awhile, den really tired. jus layed down on the bed, den i blacked out. slept for 3 hrs straight. damn.. so woke up arnd 6.30? haha..
ok.. dad was in a grumpy mood i guess. at first quite ok. den me and marshall go up into my rm again. coming down that time[mom went out to buy food.] he scold me, as me to come down faster. --".. like.. as if it made any difference if i walked slowly or ran down like superman right. ok ok . den went into kitchen. heard my dad scolding my sister. i mean, she asked him " so what are we eating tonight?" my dad cld just have replied, " this lor." but instead, "Whats wrong with this! eat den eat la! why ask so much?!" wtf. she's jus being curious k. can jus ans properly.. dad.. although we have dinner together almost everynight. i wish we wldnt. u say its a time for family gathering. yeah. what family? there are only fights going on at the table. u and yeye, me and u, u and gillian, u and nainai. there is no family spirit at the table at all lor.
kk. den.. when dinner over. i go up room lor. denden. he come and tell me, "eugene. that drawing can take off already. ugly. dont put there. throw away." BLOODY SHIT. i was so close to going over and slapping him. i dont kno why. but. come on. yeah. i kno this is ur hse and all. can jus give a little respect for my drawing? dun put there ok liao. but THROW AWAY? dad. hurting u kno. my drawing may not be the best. im no leonardo. im just me and i think that that drawing was my best piece ever. i may not draw well. i even SUCK at drawing. so? can i have the freedom to DECORATE my door? other kid's parents dont give a damn what they put in their room. posters, drawings. sigh i dun wana go into the guitar thing again. ok fine. nvm. right. i shldnt be disappointed or anything. yeah. great. ok.
haha. ok.. ended up steffi came back frm cycling. well. kk.. den chat awhile.. argh ming jie. ur media department lost their cd yea. haha. in e end.. nvm. i go and reburn another one for them. personal basis la. nvm. dowan e entire 1/2 get us into trouble. keke.x. so burn liao lor. hehe.x now she owes me smt. *winkwink*. hahas.. ok ok right. im trying my best to control myself and not to be a flirt. damn i hate flirts. like me. yeah i hate myself. so strange yet so true. well.x its gettin late. 12.40 haha.
nite all.
eugene the flirt.
1 comment:
I'm not sure which is worse, Having a Dad that 'doesn't care', or having a Dad that is on the brink of commiting suicide.Whatever it is, u do the math. Whatever it is, he's part of your family,He shares something u cannot share with anybody else(other than your other family), blood tie.He maybe ridiculous, rude or whatever u may say, but he holds the title of dad.Remember too that whatever u do to him, your son will do to you too.Try to adapt,maybe having an evil dad is not so bad, at least u'll know how to treat your children next time.At least you can show your dad that u're a better dad.
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